"Surreality doesn't stop this Party Girl"

Oh happy day! Riveting reading from your greatest admirer. As you know I've had Randy painting and I've been purchasing and repurposing just about everything I have so everything around me feels new and different and hopefully reflects my personality. I really like what I have done. One little problem. It all feels so surreal. I feel like I'm living in a dream. I know I'll look back on 2010 and it will easily be classified as a dream/nightmare. But I will move on. What concerns me more today is "what is my personality and do I even have one anymore?" "Ye Gods!" That's a terrifying thought , I've so piggybacked myself onto someone else for so long I don't even know what my own personality is anymore. Right down to the music I'm listening to right now. I like it, I think. I've stifled myself that I can't even pick out a video without thinking, "is this what you-know-who would want to watch? When he isn't even here to watch it anyway! Julie! Get a life! One area that I always was in charge without interference was book club and especially book club parties! And we have one in May! 3rd Saturdays is having their 3rd anniversary and I hope to come up with something truly mind blowing and unforgettable. I better get busy, it takes months of prep and with all my own life makeover, I've let this take a back seat which is so wrong and I know it! So, if anyone has any ideas, please send them to me and they will be considered and as usual, only the best is good enough for us, the creme de la creme of the book club world of Longmont and the tricounty area. Don't forget - Party Time, May 15th, and a book discussion, yea, a book discussion too.

"In With The New"

With all three book clubs going great guns I continue to marvel at all the interest it still holds for everyone and I continue to be grateful. Those of you who are always thanking me must remember that it's you that make it happen, I just built it, you came - It's a "Field of Dreams" sort of thing. As I pull myself out of my doldrums a little more everyday it's with the help of my book club friends who saved my life. How could I not feel a huge debt of gratitude and renewed sense of energy to put back into the Most Excellent Longmont Book Club. Okay, enough seriousness..

I know you must be wondering "what has helped me feel so much better?" Well let me tell you, one thing, I got rid of THE PURPLE WALL . Gone! It's now a lovely shade of Granny Smith apple green, I know some of you might think that is strange but the interesting thing is I was lead to it. After enough samples to paint an entire room, something lead me to this shade and it has revived my soul. I don't know and I'm not going to question it. It has had some kind of effect on me -rearranged my chakras or something. Getting rid of the BOBpurple and all of the stuff that went with it and creating my own space is changing my entire outlook on life. We all need to make things feel like our own. Like a White Sox fan at a Cubbies game you don't want to feel like you're somewhere you don't belong, and I'm starting to feel like I belong here. Strange, after living here for almost ten years it's finally turning into my space. Now, I'm not done or anything - it's still a work in progress, but that's the fun of it. When I'm done I'm having a party and you're all invited! Like the book club, we change a little and we get new people that soon become old timers, and we make little changes in our "rules" but we stay the same people by and large and I am so lucky to have you all to get me through this wall painting business which is another name for divorce. I am keeping his self defense baseball bat handy for something else I have in mind..... maybe a windshield or something a little more fragile, like a kneecap, a person needs to vent their feelings or they get all balled up inside and that's just not healthy!