What the heck shall I do next? I've "redone" my house and I'm having you all over the 19th of June after book club - that is if you want to - nobody is forced to come - to show you that I got the "Bob" out! I think I really did it. I still at times wonder who lives here...It doesn't quite feel completely like home yet but it will. I am really trying to get my LBC mojo back and I think I feel that coming on. Words out that I'm looking for a random fling with a random man so that's in the works. "Works" a form of the word "work". I think that is next up. I think I may need to actually work, as in lift a finger, get up on time, figure out what to wear.... oh my, it all sounds overwhelming - I must go get a glass of my daughters famous Sangria to steady the nerves that this whole idea is causing. I was hoping something delightful and creative would find me. Would that be too much to ask? A lot of people work the grapevine, that was my plan. So come on grapevine, grow this direction and give me some direction. I know I don't want to live out my days sitting around here with a cat on my lap, but a very nice cat she is, but work? GACK!!! It's enough to make me cough up a hairball. I know people who do this, work that is, someone the other day at book club mentioned she had worked someplace for 37 years! There is nothing in this world I've done for 37 years except maybe eat, sleep, and breath. How proud I would be to stay somewhere for a length of time. Now I did have an abrupt ending to something not work related that I thought would be a longer term thing, I'm not counting that although I had high hopes there. So this is the time to reinvent myself and make some changes and really get in touch with my inner employee. I think maybe if I live as frugally as possible maybe this work thing wouldn't even have to be an issue. Maybe it's time to call in all the favors - the loans to my kids. Except I told them long ago - I don't loan money. Once I give it to them I consider it gone and just pay it forward. It seems they have taken me seriously. You know, there isn't a big rush, I think I need the Summer to really get in touch with "who am I" and "knowing myself"....! Yes! That's it, what good is all this worry if I don't even know myself? I hope to meet me somewhere in the not too far away future.
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