I'm going to start this post with a familiar beginning---- I did it! I did it! I made it through Christmas! I had no major meltdown, no evil vengeance, maybe a tear or two and a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach , but I got through Christmas with no crisis! For starters I was very busy in December. I had a few health issues to get in before the end of the year (insurance issues, drat!) and my beloved Open House to prepare for, then right after that I got my tonsils out - yes, what most eight year olds are doing, and that kicked my butt for awhile. But, like a Who in Whoville, I felt a warm feeling creeping over me and it was... I think it was... excitement for Christmas! Again I had my children working themselves to a faretheewell trying to make sure Mom was getting a good holiday ("pssst..she's had a bad year") and I let them go with that feeling because Dammit, I had! I can't say I didn't let a sick feeling pass over me now and then with thoughts of last year or years past or even the year I've just been through - who wouldn't -but I've sort of given myself a year to wallow in the mire of muck this has become. Although I know you can't put a time frame on these things, I'm going to rise like a Phoenix and get the hell out of living his life in my head! For crying out loud this is supposed to be a page about a Book Club. Well this Book Club Moderator hasn't been worth her salt and that must change and it will.
I was looking back on the books we've read in the past year and couldn't help but associate them with "I came to this meeting the same month Bob left?" "How did I manage to do that?" "And this meeting?", "How on earth did I get myself dressed and put on makeup and get myself to Borders for this one?" Well I was able to because although we are there to discuss books, I have made many friends and I have the support of them, having to be there was what has gotten me through the past year - I didn't make it to every meeting. The first two years of LBC I only missed one due to knee surgery. That goes to show you how this has wiped me out. I had that bomb fall on my life. The Red Cross has come in and helped me clean up the mess and things are looking up. I couldn't be more grateful for that and for all my LBC members.
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